Ever just felt drained?
I
was definitely feeling that way. Just tired of being tired, fighting, being
strong, holding on, and waiting. I would just be driving and crying. Sitting
and crying. Honestly, I tried to fight those tears cause I didn’t like how weak
I thought it made me look but I couldn’t. Then God reminded me that when I am
weak, all I need to do is surrender the truth about my situation at His feet.
My personality would imply that I’m a go-getter. I'm much better at lending
help sometimes than receiving. This behavior slipped into my relationship with
God. It would appear that I would like to give God my all, but don't know how
to receive His.
I've come to realize that
getting to the end of myself, meaning that I feel exhausted, could be viewed as
a blessing rather than a curse. When you look through scripture, the common
denominator of all the people used by God was their ability to surrender, not
just when it was convenient but when it wasn’t. Jesus presented His will to God
about the cup that was set before Him, but surrendered to His fathers will (Matthew
26:39). Esther availed herself to be used by God to deliver her people from
being wiped out even though she knew her life was at stake. Paul gives us a
point of reference about weakness in 2
Corinthians 9-10
“But he said to me, ‘My grace is
sufficient for you, for my power is made
perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that
Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”
When we feel like we can
handle everything we usually don't consider surrendering. Let’s say there’s a
war; when both parties feel like they have what it takes to defeat the other
side, they continue to pursue. But when they realize they don’t, they throw up
a white flag/sign that represents their surrender.
But in this case we are
not fighting against God, but the enemy and we cannot win on our own. Throwing up
our white flag represents our surrender to God. It’s okay to admit that we can’t
handle it, in fact the situation was never ours to handle in the first place
and that’s why it overwhelms us. The bible says that in our weakness, God is
made strong. Meaning that His strength cannot fully be seen when we decide to
put our “strength” on display. One must be less, so the other might be greater.
In Genesis 1:16, we learn about how God created the sun and the moon. Both emit
light but there is a greater one (Sun). Our “strength” is only a foretaste of the eternal strength
and power God possesses. The moon can never outdo the Sun no matter how hard it tries.
Yet, our human nature tells us to
always fend for ourselves and as a result we fake being strong instead of allowing
God to truly get the glory. If we could admit that we can’t do it, we will find
that at the end of our selves marks the beginning of God’s divine intervention.
Our weakness gives God an opportunity to gain the Glory we were created to
bring Him. Meaning that these weaknesses can aid us in fulfilling our purpose on earth. So, don’t
hide them rather shout about them as Paul said so that He who is greater can be
seen through you.
Be encouraged.
Prayer Point
Lord,
please help me to be real with you about how I feel. Cleanse me of the pride
that causes me to hide my weaknesses and pretend to be strong. Teach me to
believe Your word that assures me that when I am weak, You are strong for me.
All this I pray in Jesus name. Amen!
