He is quite the charmer
Great manners and a love out of this world.
A perfect gentleman.
But I realized He loves me more than I can ever reciprocate. I told Him but He said He doesn't care.
He will love me till the sun looses it's shine,
He will love me until the earth kisses the stars.
Till the moon sings of its rays
I'm over here like, how can you possibly love a flawed woman?
How can a king settle for the crumbs of a servant?
But He said "I love you with an everlasting love. A love that cannot be defined. A love whose equation equals infinity".
So, although I have not much, really nothing to give this king, He still wants me.
He stretched out His hand, reached for me in my low stature, pulled me up, and changed my name from slave to friend. Lover, daughter, queen, beat of my heart, more precious than gold!
A reflection of His perfection is what He calls me.
And I chuckle, cover my eyes, and He pulls my hands off my face. Looks at me and says believe it. These are not mere words I speak to you. I need you to understand that this is who you are, now go out there and live it!
So, dear Adam..
I had been wondering how I would recognize the wolf from the sheep. Sounds obvious, but I've done a terrible job in the past since there are many dressed like the other. The standard by which I made my decisions were birth from the old wine skin that harbored who I thought I was, but now I've been made anew.
God has given me new wine skin in which He filled with Himself. Still I reached back to my old skin and attempted to mix it, half what I knew and half God. It's no wonder I was loosing my mind. I felt my head was going to explode, I couldn't handle it but then God showed me that who I was can never be merged with who He has created me to be. Next time I'm having problems differentiating I'll refer to the description of my father, because He says you are a direct reflection of Him.
The man God is molding you to be is a replica of His unending love for a flawed church. He said He called you out from among them to lay your life down for me even when I don't deserve it. In my guilt, He called you to love me through the shackles of imperfection that mock daily. He called you to love me not like the world but like Him, and to me that's crazy! Your not superman, but you've been filled with the one whose name is above every other name. With the one who parts seas and causes dead bones to give life.
So I'll wait for you like Rachel waited for Jacob. Patiently.
No I'm not going to pause my life while I wait, because I realize as much as you're a promise for me, i'm a promise for you. A promise that was elevated from slave to daughter so that I could be worthy of His son.
When the enemy attacks my mind telling me you don't exist I'll remind him of the promise Jesus whispered to me "I'll love you till the sun looses its shine"
A love so eternal it cannot lie, so even if it means patiently waiting to get to revelation, I'll wait in preparation.
Sincerely,
Your promise :)
